I am currently sitting in the Auraria Campus Library for my English 1020 class and guess what?........I'M BORED! I hate the class mainly because I am ahead of the game with the research for the assignment. I know that I have to keep going to class and just hold on til the end of the semester but the end of the semester seems to be a far away prospect when you are so bored that you could litterally feel your brain melting away into nothingness. I am just kinda bored to the point of tears and annoyed to high hell about things in life right now. I'm annoyed that I can't figure out why my ex decided to break my heart and infuriate me and my mother. I am annoyed that I continue to have to yell at the people down stairs from my apartment, they fight all the time and are quite loud about it, I broke up their fight at one this morning. I am annoyed that I am living in a world where I continue to feel that chivalry is dead, and that men are truely more shallow than women. I am just sick of it and the only guys that tend to like thick or full figured women happen to be the guys that think I'm on the rebound. I dont do the whole rebound relationship thing, it isn't me and I cold never hurt someone that way, as it has happened to me quite a few times and I know how bad I felt when I found out. Im feeling a little like people are enjoying pestering me about things, especially my family. All they fucking care about are my goddamned grades and all I can say is back off and leave me the fuck alone! I'm smarter than they assume and I am really getting sick of it. I also have a friend who doesn't know the meaning of NO! she wants my creed ticket but doesn't want to pay for it, and I keep telling her no, she has to pay for it!!!!!!

Ok so yea I have not been on the site very much in teh last few months. I got really busy and annoyed with all the internet things in my life. I graduated from high school on May 22nd,2009! I finally grauated. I got a second tattoo right before graduation so my back was sore! I started college 2 weeks after I graduated and completed one semester during the summer, I am in my second semester of college now and resenting the hell out of the fact that I had to pay for classes I took my senior year of high school.
I am a Social Work major, I am concentrating on Child Welfare. I am planning to go to Law School to become a Gaurdian Ad Litem, so I can help children in cases where they would need someone to make decisions for them, and I would like to become a foster parent someday after I am all set up in my own place and have a good stable job.

The announcement that I was going to be going into Social Work and then Law was a huge shock for my family. None of them honestly thought I would do something like that, in fact it really kinda got to a few of them, they wanted me to do something "more my speed" like teaching. Needless to say I no longer refer to them by their names, they now have nick names and will continue to be called by the nicknames until I see fit to call them by their given names.

My mom got into it with my grams again, can anyone guess the topic? Yes it was my size and weight again! She doesn't see how much weight I'm losing and that could partly be because my skin got all stretched out, I was over 300 pounds for about 3 years so my skin is all stretched out and I have come to terms with it. I am eventually going to need a tummy tuck and I will deal with it when I can. But for now my grams shows her distaste for my size whenever she sees me. She does this by making small comments, rude noises when i eat, rude and hateful looks whenever she sees me. It is really getting to the point that I am almost ready to just stop communicating with her, at least until she can get her mind in the right place to accept me as I am. Hell the guys I know tell me all the time, I'm not fat I'm a real woman, she doesn't get that.